ioana
in quest for genuine
Monday, June 09, 2008
The mental chill out
I gave it some thought after a long phone conversation with a dear friend. He said women need to talk to close a chapter, while men just need to forget about it and move on. Never thought about it in these terms. I do feel the need to close things, and I do need to talk them through somehow. I just feel that they are not closed if they remain unspoken, unexplained and unforgiven. Although I am not sure how or when will this happen.

Happiness can be selfish sometimes. It surely is now. But I can't and won't turn away from it. In all this restlessness and turmoil, it finally feels right. Right to be wrong, right to be happy, right to be myself. Alas.

As for the past, it is said that those who dwell on it too much will miss out the future. I choose to leave behind only a part of it, the one that doesn't worth remembering. As for the rest of it, it has taught me some lessons, and it has been valuable at that time, so no reason to forget about it just because it's not the same now. Setting apart the wrongs and the rights takes time, but it becomes easier as feelings settle down. I'm not there yet, but my mind is finally chilled...
Written at 5:34 AM by ioana.
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