About Me
- Name: ioana
- Location: Bucharest, Romania
I experiment with myself and the world around me. I always seek for that small sparkle of what's real and authentic in things, people, nature...
Sometimes I feel that the world is such a small place, that there are friends in all the corners of the world. But then, if I look at the globe, I realize that I'm in my little box, a minuscule place called Romania, and there is so much to explore out there.
People come and go in my life. Some leave a mark, some leave great memories, with some I struggle to keep contact. When friends go they take something from me with them...I know they are still there, out there, they are still my good friends, yet I feel this emptiness for awhile.
I am a bit sad now, for some of my dear friends are leaving for their road in life. I am incredibly happy and proud of them, but I will miss them so so much!
"Mary's in India...she said's she'd write...but that was three weeks ago" Dido
Hmmm, I was thinking yesterday I'd like to stay and gossip with my girlfriends, and that wish came true :)) We had a little get-together and spent the time talking about life, movies and ... sex (this subject is always at fashion :))
One of the best things at being a girl is the social life you have with other girls! I never saw boys doing this, but then again there are many aspects of the "boys club" that I don't know, so I might be mistaking. Anyway, it's great to spend a night over with your friends, talking about absolutely anything you can think of, giving advice, taking advice, or simply enjoying great conversation!We didn't have ice cream....Teacher's and Coke replaced it very well :)))
Everybody watched the movie Closer, but since I already saw it, and absolutely hated it, I watched Sin City. Not exactly the movie you'd wanna see on a relaxing Friday night, nevertheless it was delicious. Quentin Tarantino co-directed the movie, and it reminds a lot of Kill Bill. If you can savor sophisticated stories and violence, I highly recommend it.
I wanted to go to the pool this weekend, but I guess I'll settle for roller-skating and cleaning :)))
I can cook! Unbelievably, but I can actually cook :) Today I did it twice, in the morning I cooked some bundaskenyer (it means a type of French toast) for Lexy. Then in the afternoon I made special potatoes for Norica...at one point I will make a good housewife :)))
Last night we went in the park...about 11pm, in Herastrau, the most beautiful park in Bucharest. The city is fairly poor in green areas, but Herastrau makes up for that. It's a very large park, with a huge lake, flowers, trees, green color all over the place.
I stood with Lexy and Nori at the water side, looking at the lake. The lights have a fantastic effect on the water at night! Not to mention that there were lightnings all over the sky, making all surroundings look terrifying...I want to go in the park much more often from now on! I love the green leafs, the water, the fresh air...it's the king of place where I feel free.
"Can't you see....Life's easy....If you consider things from another point of view" - DB Boulevard, Point of view - great song
and I in the sky
You make me feel
like I can fly
So high
E-le-va-tion
So what happened...?
Self reflection :) I spent the last days taking a good look at myself, at what I am, who I want to be, why do I feel sad.Working just lost it's flavour till today! I have to admit I've spent these days in a graceful laziness :) And I enjoyed it!
So yes, I have troubles with accomplishing my tasks, my school performance is almost inexistent, my family is not doing really well, and I broke up with my boyfriend!Still, i don't remember feeling so alive in months! I feel I want to scream, to shout, to sing really loud! Life is beautiful, wonderful, it's summer and I am free at last!
Free from believing I have to do things, free from the impression I'm getting older, free from acting serious, free from feeling guilty if I don't work myseld to death!I realize now how much I missed my friends, how chaotic I was organizing my time, how maniac I became with work :)
Do you how few things I need to be happy:
- to be in shape
- to feel free
- to be close to the people I love
- to experience new sensations
- to find my inner balance
Now I work less (i still have to improve efficiency), I get out with special friends, I go to the gym (just started, but I love it!), I'm writing a few minutes every day, and I try new things as much as possible!I felt better starting with day 2 :)))
Enjoy life!! (U2 - Elevation)
Till now it was nice to feel the rain, the wind, but it becomes obvious the weather is rappidly getting warmer :( I need to buy new clothes or I will soon melt!!! Yes, the weather is a great excuse to enrich your wardrobe :))
I underlined the weather because this time of the year always makes me feel dizzy. It's like you suffocate and nothing can make you free. It's a sensation that always reminds of the "Novel of the Nearsighted Adolescent" (Romanul adolescentului miop - in Romanian) by Eliade. The time before summer is like a torture, but sweet and sensual. It's like you feel tortured, but still you don't want it to end!
I'm going to the gym tonight with my friends. This a good way to escape torture :) I feel like eating icecream and gossiping with them! I really miss these girls, it's ages since I really talked to them.
Conclusion: Me duele tanto que sea asi, Sigue llorando perdón, yo no voy a llorar hoy por ti (Shakira - La tortura)
No me ensañaste como estar sin ti
Ni que le digo yo a este corazón,
Si tú te has ido todo lo perdí,
Por dónde empiezo si todo acabó?
No me ensañaste como estar sin ti,
Cómo olvidarte si nunca aprendí?
...by Thalia
Why? Because my old one was ugly, and I wanted to write a nice story, but the interface did not inspire me :) I feel like writing, it's summer, it's sunny and hot outside! I can see green all around me, and I feel there are nice stories everywhere!
I want a story as well. I remember those summers during highschool, when all I had to do was going to the pool, sunbathing, going shopping and chatting with my friends. I used to be bored at this back then, but now I'd die for a week like those!
Bucharest is really hot during summer, I mean REALLY hot!!! The air becomes so static that you feel you can't breathe because it simply won't move inside your lungs. The pavement starts melting, and your heels are going down :):):)Still, it's nice. It's nice because of the people, you can see many beautiful people walking down the street ;) If only the temperature was 10 degrees colder, all would be perfect!
Today was only a preview of the summer: the sun was tempered by a breeze, the heat is still down!I need a story...i'm wondering if there is one coming in the next days?