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I am constantly pissed off with my lack of discipline! Somehow my resolution of relaxing and calming myself down for a change has been turned by my twisted brain in a zero stress attitude. Of course, nothing wrong so far, just that zero stress for me equals zero discipline.
I wake up every morning around 8.30 (at 9 I should be at work) and slowly ooze myself out of sleep till 9.30, arriving at the office at a horrific 10! My Pilates classes are waiting for me since two weeks ago, but I just felt like pampering myself instead of stretching myself, so I conveniently spent the time on the couch reading. The book pile with a dozen novels and girlish books is almost extinguished, while the two poor business books I REALLY should read are lonely waiting from two months ago! I didn’t write on my blog, not my mention my damn book hasn’t progressed one miserable inch.
I know I sound angry now with these exclamation points and all the harsh words. But really, I am not, I am actually totally chilled out, and this is about the only thing that manages to piss me off: nothing pisses me off!
Some yet undiscovered trigger button in my mind decided to switch off from real life and turn on to Pinky Neverland. It’s like spending time in this one pinky puffy cotton balloon, lying comfortable on my back while listening to my favorite music and drinking margaritas! So please, I can only bear a few weeks of this, enough already, somebody switch me back to reality. I miss me!!! The me who stresses over work, who is a business literature aficionado, and who fights with workout a constant battle against cellulite!!!
I tried, do believe I tried to resuscitate myself, but I keep chilling back again. What to do? Maybe I should start it on a blackboard, like in primary school:
Must come back to reality
Must come back to reality
Must come back to reality
Must come back to reality
Must come back to reality
Must....come...back...to....reality..........
For all ladies in this special day, only one word: aimez! Remember to love, because...
Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas,
Je vois la vie en rose.
Il me dit des mots d'amour,
Des mots de tous les jours,
Et ca me fait quelque chose.