ioana
in quest for genuine
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- Name: ioana
- Location: Bucharest, Romania
I experiment with myself and the world around me. I always seek for that small sparkle of what's real and authentic in things, people, nature...
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Monday, July 28, 2008
tomorrow, tomorrow
i love you, tomorrow, you're only a day away....I think it's an old song, Grace Jones I guess.
So, yes! TOMORROW! How is possible that with the best planning, with making lists, and taking time to pack, things are always crowded on the last 100 meters??!! While it seams so far away, yet so little time left till tomorrow, I'm facing my very own problems today. Like say, not being able to find some of the clothes I really need. Or buying a very expensive mountain jacket and discovering the hood is incomplete. Or not having a sleeping bag. Or still having tones of work at the office.
But, on another side, a little part of my brain is whispering: "tomorrow...we're going to Africa tomorrow!!! I can't believe it!!" My African dream is about to start, snow caped Kilimanjaro is waiting for me, I'll soon be lying on the chilled Zanzibar beach, I'll see the people, the colors, life....
Sight, so I guess my excitement is back, no need to worry :))
I have a suprise for you all, but I don't know if it will be ready on time. We'll see tomorrow!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
almost, almost leaving
One more week before taking off for Africa...gosh, I can barely hold on waiting here...
Odd enough, I don't feel like I usually do before departing: excited and energetic and crazy. I can almost say I'm bored and annoyed. Lots of work to be solved before leaving, lots of things to put in order, lots of stuff to buy and pack.
Sleepy these days. Felt like I've been running for too much of awhile now, and I need to sit down and rest. And sleep :) I want a couple of not-doing-anything-days before I leave. Not going somewhere, not doing this or that....just chilling.
I almost finished The Fountainhead. Almost, as this 700+ pages book took me almost two weeks to read. I can' remember when a book took me so much time, but I felt like I needed to digest everything. What I like about it is that I can't tell if I like it not, if I agree or not. I guess some more digestion is required :)
Odd enough, I don't feel like I usually do before departing: excited and energetic and crazy. I can almost say I'm bored and annoyed. Lots of work to be solved before leaving, lots of things to put in order, lots of stuff to buy and pack.
Sleepy these days. Felt like I've been running for too much of awhile now, and I need to sit down and rest. And sleep :) I want a couple of not-doing-anything-days before I leave. Not going somewhere, not doing this or that....just chilling.
I almost finished The Fountainhead. Almost, as this 700+ pages book took me almost two weeks to read. I can' remember when a book took me so much time, but I felt like I needed to digest everything. What I like about it is that I can't tell if I like it not, if I agree or not. I guess some more digestion is required :)
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Today, more than ever
Today, perhaps, because of spending a useless sad angry night. Today, because of missing your arms around me. Today, for hearing you whisper my name. Today I'm putting my armory behind, letting go of all these needs and boundaries.
I think too much (yes, so I've been told). I can't really help it, it's in my nature I guess. I'm worrying too much (yes, I know it). I haven't been like this, but when you get burnt once you become so. And I can be a picky annoying nag sometimes (yes, I admit it). So, today, more than ever, thank you, for understanding, for trying, for giving in...
There is no way in knowing what the future holds. I know that, yet I still much too often try to foresee it, to understand it, to prevent it even. It's as useless as trying to escape the past. The past will always be there, it has already happened and nothing can change that. So I guess all that's left is the present...I wonder how many times already have I reached this conclusion?....And neither of these times was nice or easy...
I think too much (yes, so I've been told). I can't really help it, it's in my nature I guess. I'm worrying too much (yes, I know it). I haven't been like this, but when you get burnt once you become so. And I can be a picky annoying nag sometimes (yes, I admit it). So, today, more than ever, thank you, for understanding, for trying, for giving in...
There is no way in knowing what the future holds. I know that, yet I still much too often try to foresee it, to understand it, to prevent it even. It's as useless as trying to escape the past. The past will always be there, it has already happened and nothing can change that. So I guess all that's left is the present...I wonder how many times already have I reached this conclusion?....And neither of these times was nice or easy...
"Every now and then, I like to do things nice and easy
But somehow, I never ever seam to do
Nothing completely
Nice, Easy
You know why?
Cause we like to do it
Nice and Rough"
But somehow, I never ever seam to do
Nothing completely
Nice, Easy
You know why?
Cause we like to do it
Nice and Rough"